This isn’t an easy post for me to write, so I’m just going to come out and say it. As you’ve probably noticed by my large reduction in blogging frequency, my heart just hasn’t been into blogging lately. I keep thinking that I just need to get back in the habit and my passion will come back full force, but it’s just not happening. Blogging has never felt like a chore before and lately it has. After being in college for six years, it’s so nice to just go to work and then come home and relax like a normal person without having to think about what I’m going to blog about. If you’re a blogger then I’m sure you already know this, but keeping up with a blog is a huge time commitment. It takes me about an hour to write quality posts and sort through pictures to include in them, and I just haven’t felt like doing that. Blogging used to be something I looked forward to and I used to love taking pictures all day long, but recently that hasn’t been the case.
Another reason I think my motivation behind blogging is wallowing is because my motivation behind healthy living and weight loss has been dwindling as well. This isn’t something I’m proud of because that’s not the kind of person I want to be and I’m trying really hard to find my inner fire again, but it’s been really tough. I’ll do good for a few days or week or something, but then I’ll completely derail my progress over a weekend and then just won’t get back on track. Similarly, I’ll go to the gym every day one week, and then the next I’m lucky if I get there twice. I’m not sure if this kind of rut is normal, but I’m pretty sure that this is how people who’ve lost weight gain it back and let’s be honest, I’ve definitely put on a few pounds this year. While I’m still down 90-95 pounds, it’s not as impressive as my previous 115 that I was down a year and half ago and that makes me sad.
All this being said, I’ve decided to take some official time off from blogging over the next month or so with the intention of bringing it back no later than October 1st, if I decide that’s what I want to keep doing. I know I’m going to lose some of my readership – some of it will probably even be permanent and I don’t blame you – but I hope ya’ll will check back and keep following me when I decide to come back to the blog world. I’m hoping to use this time to do a little “soul searching” and figure out my priorities in life, and hope I’ll come back in a few weeks feeling refreshed with a new attitude and lots of new things to talk about – both health related and personal.
Thanks again for following me on this journey and if there’s any one thing I’ll miss the most over the next month, it’s reading your sweet and wonderful comments each and every day <3.